[Ahsoka's eyes narrow as her mind calls up a memory from years ago, of trying to protect Padmé and failing, of Padmé ultimately protecting herself.]
... Anakin. Has it ever occurred to you that even if you two had never met, Padmé would still be facing down danger every day, just by virtue of being who she is? She might not fight on the front lines, but she still faces just as many threats. And... she's pretty good at protecting herself.
I explain what the Force feels like to people who aren't Force sensitive here all the time! Maybe they don't get it, but at least I'm trying to communicate with them.
[Because let's be real, that's what she's really mad about here-- it's not so much about this one conversation as it is about a culmination of several conversations they've had over the past few months. Or more precisely, Anakin's continuing pattern of shutting her out.]
[ He frowns and cross his arms. A hand sneaks out and rubs over his face, keenly aware of how embarrassing this is going to get for him. ]
When Padme and I got married, we said vows. We vowed to protect each other, we vowed that my life is hers and hers is mine. Just because she has faced down danger before, and will face it down herself, it doesn't mean it would ever sit well for me. Any threat that she faces becomes a danger that threatens our lives. The fact that I could be the cause of any of that makes it even worse.
What do you want to hear, Ahsoka? That I'm fine with the idea that my wife will always be in some kind of danger? That our lives will never be peaceful?
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... Anakin. Has it ever occurred to you that even if you two had never met, Padmé would still be facing down danger every day, just by virtue of being who she is? She might not fight on the front lines, but she still faces just as many threats. And... she's pretty good at protecting herself.
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We don't need to talk about this.
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I'm not blowing you off because you're bringing up something I don't like, I'm blowing you off because you have no idea what it is like. You wouldn't.
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[It hasn't changed since the last time they talked about it.]
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[ A sigh ]
It's not the same. You wouldn't understand it fully unless you've felt it.
I'm not undermining you, Ahsoka. This is simply how I understand it, personally.
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[Because let's be real, that's what she's really mad about here-- it's not so much about this one conversation as it is about a culmination of several conversations they've had over the past few months. Or more precisely, Anakin's continuing pattern of shutting her out.]
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When Padme and I got married, we said vows. We vowed to protect each other, we vowed that my life is hers and hers is mine. Just because she has faced down danger before, and will face it down herself, it doesn't mean it would ever sit well for me. Any threat that she faces becomes a danger that threatens our lives. The fact that I could be the cause of any of that makes it even worse.
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... But ... danger is an inherent part of the lives we lead, isn't it? Not to mention, the life Padmé leads too.
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What do you want to hear, Ahsoka? That I'm fine with the idea that my wife will always be in some kind of danger? That our lives will never be peaceful?
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[She pauses, seemingly lost for words. Then she sighs.]
... This is stupid. I was only trying to reassure you that Padmé can take care of herself, and somehow we've ended up arguing.
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That's because you did such a great job of reassuring me.
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[It's a weak attempt to inject some dry humour and levity back into the conversation. Ahsoka's version of an olive branch.]
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Let's hope there isn't a next time.