[ It's a hard admission for him, and he's relieved -- beyond relieved that Obi-Wan hadn't had a more negative reaction to it. These are decisions based solely on his emotions. He's not unwilling to make such decisions in the thick of battle but he has time here to remember all those Jedi teachings from his many mentors and Masters who have taught him the one Jedi truism.
Do not let emotions guide your actions. It will be your downfall. You will never be a Jedi if you continue like this.
He wonders briefly if he would have been able to become a Jedi if not for the war and the Republic's demands. If not, for Palpatine.
Then there are Obi-Wan's words. He doesn't feel like he deserves them. He doesn't know who he's meant to be. The Chosen One? He thinks back on Mortis and shakes his head. He's tired. It's loud. He grips Obi-Wan's shoulder momentarily. ]
[ Obi-Wan pauses as well. It has been some time - for both of them. While Obi-Wan remembers a time when the galaxy wasn't in a state of unrest, his life has been turbulent. ]
Why not ask around? Perhaps you'll get a clearer picture.
[ He doesn't want to ask anyone else. It's petulant and arrogant of him to think no one else would understand. But he has reasons made up in his head ]
What do the Jedi do when there's peace in the galaxy?
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Do not let emotions guide your actions. It will be your downfall. You will never be a Jedi if you continue like this.
He wonders briefly if he would have been able to become a Jedi if not for the war and the Republic's demands. If not, for Palpatine.
Then there are Obi-Wan's words. He doesn't feel like he deserves them. He doesn't know who he's meant to be. The Chosen One? He thinks back on Mortis and shakes his head. He's tired. It's loud. He grips Obi-Wan's shoulder momentarily. ]
Thank you. It... It does help.
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( though not from lack of trying ) ]
I hope it does, Anakin. I hope you get some measure of peace.
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I'm not sure what that's suppose to feel like, outside of a war.
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Why not ask around? Perhaps you'll get a clearer picture.
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What do the Jedi do when there's peace in the galaxy?
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[ Even in peace time, while they lingered at the Temple, the Jedi were always busy. There were always missions to be undertaken. ]
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Isn't he? ]
You're right. There's always trouble.
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